Hello, I am new here. I have been an addict all my life. I started on H when I was 12, and was actively strung out for around 35 years. In the system several times, in rehab at least 14 times, locked up, and then did a serious stretch. And when I finally got clean, it was kicking and screaming. My wife was the voice of reason through the worst years of it, who put me in hospitals, rehab, counseling, and finally divorced me and had me locked up is now still my partner. We got back together and had several really good years. Then in a twist of fate, SHE started using H. Everyone who knows us was "WHAT!? WTF? After everything she saw why on earth would she choose this?" Especially in middle age. In a Fentanyl crisis. There's a little more to the story but it is so confusing now. I was always the bad guy and it is all reversed now. In a way this gives her some kind of leeway, she believes. Like she is owed something. We have had all the 'big talks'; with our counselors etc. yap yap. I do not know what to do anymore.