I was addicted to meth for three years. The man I was married to was addicted longer than I was, but I didn't know it. He's not the reason I started. I was working nights and taking care of our daughter all day and a friend told me that it would help me stay awake. I brought it home and it quickly became the most important thing in our lives instead of just his. I was with my husband for six years. I kicked him out last November and have been clean since. But only because I found out two weeks after I kicked him out that I was pregnant. The only reason I've managed to stay clean for almost eight months is because of my baby boy. I'm terrified that after I have him, I'm not going to be strong enough and I'm going to go back to the drug. People tell me all the time, I have a beautiful daughter and I'll have a son, they should keep me straight. But it's not about that. I want to stay clean for myself and my kids... But I'm afraid I'm not going to be stronger than the drug. I dream about tweak, it's always on my mind, I know exactly where to go and how to get some and I'm afraid I'll give in to the impulses. I know it's a hard drug to quit. I know I'm on the right path because I've been sober for eight months. But that doesn't stop the cravings. And they are getting worse. I don't drink, I don't do any other drugs, even when I'm not pregnant. Meth is my problem. And I'm on here because it's getting g worse. I've started to think of this as a timeline, just five more weeks and I can get some if the baby is on time. I've been clean for just 36 weeks. And I don't want to go back.