Hi, my name is Amy and I'm 18. I am a senior in highschool and have all A's. I started dating a guy from the same school and he is my best friend in the whole world, we've been through a lot but hes never left. When I was 11 I started smoking and doing little stuff that was destructive but I never thought much of it. I've been addicted to narcotics for awhile now and it has really taken a toll on my life, the school got involved and my boyfriend and I have a drug counselor but my boyfriend lies to him a lot and so it seems like I'm the only one with a problem even though we do all of the same stuff. My brother has started to notice that I'll start vomiting in the morning and he can tell it's because I've taken something, he also notices that I drop weight really quickly and don't really focus on anything anymore. He brought up that I should go to rehab but my boyfriend would probably leave me because he doesn't want help. I definitely would like to get better and every time I bring it up to him he gets pissy so I've stopped. The only way that I'll go to rehab is if he is willing to go with me but it's obvious that he won't and even if he did I probably wouldn't be able to see him and that's difficult because I know he would leave me and that's my biggest fear. I don't know if I should try and just quit on my own or try and talk him into going? I promise he's the sweetest guy in the world and I dont mean to make him sound like a monster.