Well, I'm hesitant-was hesitant- to type this. Yesterday was the perfect storm of accidents for what follows to happen. And no one here is to blame other than myself for not questioning things more than I did. Here it goes- I went to get my subutex, regular pharmacy was out. Had to go to Atlanta which is a drive late yesterday and really needed it-also my epilepsy medicine. So I had it sent to a pharmacy near where I was going when I got to ATL. (A pharmacy I used to get other scripts filled at). Now I usually use cash, but what I was doing yesterday required a card. So I didn't pay attention to cost of anything when I got to the pharmacy as I was in a very big hurry. Anyway...very rushed and distracted with other matters there seemed to be some confusion as to what I needed when I got to the other pharmacy in the city. My mom and pop pharmacy had sent over the subs but they asked what I wanted-i said "what I wish I could go without"...(this is a joke at my other pharmacy about how I hate taking Subutex). She said how many I asked if they sent it all. She said I still had some on file...? Ok...(weird but Im in a rush). I asked how many did they send she told me 7, sounded right and I got that and my other -what I thought was epilepsy medicine. I was so in another world yesterday. I had work on my mind. I used to use that pharmacy for dilaudid and opana....and who knows what else. When I get to my truck I put two tablets under my tongue from the bottle with seven in it. I had an expired (which shouldn't have been filled-but these people take cash for pills) Script for OxyContin. Looked just like Subutex and I put them under my tounge. They dissolved fast. I noticed it tasted different and didn't think it was anything other than from me starting to use tobacco again or a different brand- until it hit me. Then I looked closer and knew. And remembered that taste like yesterday then. Whats worse is that my epilepsy meds they did fill- and they looked correct, same shape color and I downed two of them also. They were a script of valium I hadn't ever filled. Nevertheless I DID take that for epilepsy- before I detoxed. Looking over my receipt I see that I paid out of pocket 177.43(with a Dr Pepper). If I had paid with cash this wouldn't have happened. If I had attributed the taste to something other than just having a dip this wouldn't have happened. If I hadn't gone to that old pharmacy-although I thought I had nothing left there- this wouldn't have happened. I was so high I was nodding driving the beltway getting back home. I took a piece of a Ritalin- which I had done the day before to get home alive. I'm still high. This was an accident. And I'm being honest. I called them at 8 this morning and the girl that filled my meds was new and it shouldn't have been filled like I thought. I explained my situation, and since I have to go back to Atlanta today because I was so high I had to come straight home they said they would refund me. I told them keep the money. (Truth is I'm too scared to go back there). I was so sober- thinking about buisness, not drugs, highs, scoring dope-now I feel like I'm at day 1. I am so so sad, depressed, heck I'm even more lonely than normal. And I'm coming down. I do have to drive back to go to the bank of America tower- a few minutes from this place, but they can keep the money. Do I start my clock back over? I'm sorry everyone. It really was an accident...I wouldn't even believe that from an ex addict. But it was.