About 5 years ago I found out that my now 30 year old son is addicted to Meth. I don't know how long exactly that he has been using but that is when I found out about it. He has stolen from my parents he has threatened my mother I had to call the police and he now has a permanent restraining order against him from her. He believes Hitler is still alive and he believes all the brainwashing on the internet, he was pretty scary at times he would say really creepy things and he believed that something was after him and he had voices in his head telling him what to do. I truly believed that the last time he was in jail for almost two years that he would stay clean and I was there every week to see him in jail went to all his courts and I put him a place to live when he got out of jail cause he had nothing. He sold everything of any value just to get high. He got a job and that lasted for 6 months and then he said the job was making him sick and that he needed to get healthy like he was in jail so he quit his job. He started to show signs like he was using again, the weight loss he must weigh 70 pounds if even that he stays awake and is very frigidity. He says he sees my daughter it breaks my heart all over again because I lost my daughter two years ago. (Not to drugs she was the complete opposite of my son) I had to leave work a couple of times cause he said he was having a heart attack I would get him to the emergency room and he would test positive for the meth. I told him that I couldn't help him if he was going to do the drug he promised that he would never touch it again. I guess I didn't help him any because he said he needed gas in his truck and he was hungry and I bought his phone minutes. I would give him $50.00-$80.00 a week so he could eat and put gas so I believed that's what he was doing with the money and all of sudden he sent me a text saying that he was leaving my house and not coming back because he was going to try to get better. I told him to be careful and to not cut me off. Well he looks really bad and I asked him again if he was using and he said no but he went into a ditch and damaged his truck camper shell. He asked if he could park in the front of the house for a week and he said he was going to sell his truck buy a bunch of meth and kill himself. I know he said that because I didn't ask him to come back into the house. He was angry with me and he sent me another text that was heart breaking he told me I was money hungry and I never cared about him he was just a pawn he was never my son and I never showed him love or affection and he was done he never had any family and he still doesn't. He said he has no family. I'm worried about him but I can't ask him to come back because he is doing the drugs and I can't give him anymore money because he is not using it to eat. I feel like I'm contributing to his habit and I refuse to work hard and have my hard earned money spent on drugs. I'm tired and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost because he is lost. I don't know how to help him anymore I'm so scared for him. Any advice would be appreciated or please tell me anyone if what I'm doing is wrong I just don't know I'm at my wits end.