hello this is my first post here but I'll keep it short sweet and to the point ! I am a 26 yo female. Have been an addict for about 10 years although I didn't hit the hard stuff until about the last 3. I am currently 4 and a half months clean off meth and have been living at a sober living house after completing three weeks at an inpatient detox facility. I am struggling right now because I pretty much only came to the sober living house due to the fact I had nowhere else to go. Well that just has changed as a friend of mine has offered to let me rent a room in his house for 250$ a month which is a great deal. However finding that out was extremely triggering for me... I feel like my resolve to stay sober is wavering because now I have a way out. I keep thinking about how amazing it feels to have the needle push it into your veins, the rush, the feeling of warmth flooding through your body. I was able to hold down my job through my addiction however lost pretty much everything else. Now that I'm clean I've gained 50 lbs and I keep telling myself that maybe I can just use for a little while until I lose the weight and then get off of it again... Iknow that's not what would actually happen. Clearly I am not ready to move out yet, I don't even have a car and there would be no way for me to get to work but the thought is extremely tempting I'm like I could get a job close to my friends house and go from there... My other cravings I've sucessfully been able to over come due to the fact that I refuse to be homeless again but now that that is not the case this is probably the worst craving and the most intense one I've had yet. Help!