Hello everyone, I quit using meth over 1 year ago on February 7th. When I stopped using it was a very chaotic and painful time. I will go into more details on this later. For the past 2 years both on meth and during my recovery I been hearing constant voices that are very distracting and sometimes irritating. My mind has been delusional as a result but every day I seem to have a firmer grape on reality as I did the previous day. Currently I do not consume alcohol unless I have that 1 rare drink and I also have quit smoking . Among other major life style changes I have basically changed every single thing in my life that was causing me distress. I have avoided the negative and have done the exact opposite just to make sure I can handle and confront all the demons in my life . Even though my life is very chaotic and I appear to have what resembles psychosis I am sure that I have gone through enough hell to remember and recollect every single mistake in my life. It’s almost as if being insane and out of it for the last 2 years has wiped my mind clean and took away my desire to do anything that would be immoral or hurt myself or others. Maybe this is my brains way of defending itself against all of my bad choices ? If it is then I certainly have a very powerful subconscious and or I developed something that resembles what I have been seeking my entire life (.A brain that actually has the ability to know without a doubt the difference between right and wrong ). Prior to this my brain always made horrible choices and I never considered what my actions would do to myself or others. This is the positive part that I have taken out of all this wash and realest insanity . I just decided to quit meth and once I quit I pretty much had no though, desire , dream or problem with staying away from it . I relapsed 1 time and this was about almost on my 1 year mark and it made me completely insane and manic immediately. I have also gained a higher lever of maturity and awareness though all of my trials and tribulations. I know that I was extremely sick and I still have allot of recovering to do. I wish these voices would go away. They disable me in terms of enjoying life and certainly need to disappear eventually. I have heard it can take the brain up to 2 years to fully recover. I have talked to multiple doctors and I have also had the opportunity to seek self help through my own free will. At one time I had a very stupid mentality that was not fit for society in terms of my drug use and thinking pattens. Now I can almost recollect and also make choices and remember and also know exactly what to do and not even have any deep churning thoughts or urges. I have no cravings and I am probably the most harmless person i know. I have no strange thoughts or behaviors that I am worried about and I do not have any anxiety or paranoia . I can admit I do think I am being taunted into believing that the source of these voices comes from a source outside myself but I cannot change that. I can explain more of my insane story later on when I am sitting on my laptop. I mostly just listen and try to go about life as best as I can. I have no control over how loud or the frequency, so I just listen and feel like there is hope that I will seek improvement and get better.