I hate the feeling of impending doom as if I cannot find a single place to be that is safe. When I dream I have already been sentenced by a judge and also sitting in a prison / concrete jail cell for a very long time. From start to finish I can remember pretty much everything happening very clearly and it almost seems like a punishment. The voices remain very distant and I am only worried about one thing and that is time. Hopefully these will go away eventually so I can get back to regular life. Very intense dreams that seem to not make allot of sense. Tonight I can also recollect a bunch of motorcycles being tipped over because of me. Almost as if they are dominos. My concern is that I have to get off and stable on another medication and without good health and with these very intense voices I would be in a very difficult situation. Hopefully today is as calm as yesterday. Same plan and same mindset of just getting through a day without being taken out of reality any feeling of depersonalization. I will talk to a therapist eventually again. All in good time I suppose. I know o have had enough of all of this inner torment. No one is out to harm me or get me and I appear to be doing very well. Considering where I was a year ago. I remember being paranoid and delusional 1 year to the date and I even remember the context. This is allot for anyone to suffer and go through . Have a nice day everyone.