So many of us get really squirrelly around our sobriety date. That is the time of year when we were truly hitting bottom, and smells, sounds, etc. can trigger memories of that worst time in our lives. Also, it is easy to fall into morbid self-reflection (shouldn't I be 'better' than this? with this much time, I should have accomplished x, y, and z.) I just wanted to offer encouragement to anyone who is going through this. It will pass. It is just another day. Everything is exactly as it is supposed to be.