How are you going to start anew when you have lost important things because of your addiction like family relationships and things that contain significant and sentimental value to you? As for me, those loss, I make as inspirations. They have already been lost, and I just thing at the same time that I hope that their loss would not be in vain. I should make something out of them, like losing someone so important to you. If those things are what it took to change me for a better man, then be it. I just hope that I can really live up to the challenge that they pose. And because of the emotion that they give me with their loss, the determination, it should be enough for me to be a man striving to become better.