Its Christmas day today – im here sitting by myself at home after leaving my Mother’s house after getting into an argument with my Suboxone fuelled 39 yo brother . Looking through many of these experiences on this forum I thought I would tell everyone my family’s story from a different point of view of never being a drug user of any kind – I want to articulate on how one of my brothers initial six moth use of heroin in 2008 , and now nine year abuse of Suboxone , has totally destroyed our small family in so many ways . Now as I’ve never been a user of any such drugs like Heroin or Suboxene many people will think that im being inconsiderate and im sorry if you think so – but I can only articulate what effect Suboxone has had on my brother and also on us as a family after he began the treatments approx nine years ago. In 2008 my brother, of roughly same age, begun taking heroin and he managed to hide it from us for a good six months until it came to a head in late 2008 - he was picked up by an ambulance when laying down in the street where he had an overdose - this shook me , my younger brother and my mother - we all rallied around the best we could to get him outside of the mix of friends he had come involved with and we achieved this by any means possible. At that time in 2009 neither me , my mother , or other younger brother really understood heroin addiction – we understood that he craved heroin and we had to try and help him get off it and that’s about it. He moved into my into my home and me and my younger brother stuck to him like flies around the proverbial to the point of my younger brother stopping his studies for a year – we thought things were looking up until he we caught him in late 2009 with his old mix of friends and being off his head in some dingy hell hole . This living hell carried on for another 12 months and it was beginning to destroy my younger brother’s life as he couldn’t cope with seeing his brother being destroyed by Heroin. From 2011 it begun to affect my working/home life where it was really getting me down - so we organised for him to move into an apartment and managed to convince him to enrol in the local drug clinic – This is when Suboxone came into his life. Now I know I’d prefer him to be taking Suboxone than heroin if he was to be taking anything ....at least his face is not all mushed up - and there is no doubt that he lives a less risky life and has no dangers from street walking for heroin that he would be more likely to overdose on - however....over the years its become quite clear to me that he has never once attempted to come off Suboxone - he is not using it as a treatment…he is using it as a recreational drug , a substitute for Heroin. His drug dealer has become the State , albeit a less dangerous drug…well that’s what we thought. Since 2011 until this day has been collecting his Suboxone from the local pharmacy on a daily basis – he takes his medication at approx. 10.30am , he then goes into what I can only describe as an alarmed state …some people I know think he is using cocaine . He then goes straight to the local bar from 1pm onwards where he down 2-3 pints of Guinness every day and continues to act in an overconfident manner ….to the point where he comes across as very annoying …he has been in several fights and has been beaten up numerous times – he then just walks around the city moving from one bar to another as if he is continuous “party mode “– he then turns back up to my mother’s house at approx 5-7pm each night sprouting absolute **** - he becomes over aggressive and goes on tangents in a drug/alcohol fuelled stupor. The best way I can describe his overall persona in 2019 is that he comes across as over talkative like someone who has had their first few drinks at a bar (but has tons of zombie energy on steroids) – he becomes totally dismissive of anyone as if they are not there...almost as if someone had put ear muffs on him - talking to him is just impossible and he doesn’t register anything said to him . His memory is simply non existant when it comes to any matter which doesn’t revolve around himself. He is extremely manipulative and a habitual liar …his lies are so ridiculous but he becomes aggressive when his made up stories are not accepted. It’s like a walking zombie – you can talk to him about something today and tomorrow he wouldn’t even remember talking to you at all, he will then lie and attempt to make out that everyone around him is conspiring against him , we all know its Suboxone and alcohol ….but he honestly believes he is on another level to everyone else , its quite bizarre . My younger brother doesn’t talk to him anymore and doesn’t turn up for any family get together due to his pestering attitude towards our mother - he doesn’t work even though he is a qualified engineer - he scrounges for money to satisfy his alcohol consumption and he sleeps on my mother’s couch every night and the circle begins again day after day . Today was the last straw for me – he has effectively shattered my mother over the last ten years with the continuous arguments and derogatory comments against her which are totally unwarranted - we speak to him about it but he couldn’t care less . He was never like this before taking Suboxone. Im quite sure that Suboxone does work for some people as a treatment – but I think it will only be a select few who want to break free from Opiate addiction – but in cases like my brother he does not want to be opiate free ……he loves it ….it’s like eating a boiled sweet to him which gives him a buzz. He dresses up in suits and walks around the city like a complete idiot thinking he is king of the world . Its so tragic, I love him dearly, but I can’t stop crying over how upset my mother has got over the past few years …..she can’t bring herself to kick him out of her flat but keeps asking him to leave – she is 79yo.... he just manipulates everything she does and is a prisoner in her own home at times. Ive said my final words to him today in a question - do you realise , in your little drug fuelled bubble, that you have destroyed this family in the last ten years , why didn't you attempt to stop taking the drug ? He looked at me and smiled and stuck two fingers up . I lost my brother in 2008 - he died the day in 2008 he took heroin and eleven years on his drug fuelled life is destroying his family. Personally if i would have known at what suboxone does , after a long time of taking it , i would rather have had him committed and locked away.