Sometimes because of the miseries we had in our life some people thinks that it is already the end of the world for them and they want to commit suicide in order not to feel the sadness, hurt and pains they are experiencing. But life is beautiful for us to end our life just like that. Just think of your family and love ones who will feel your loss in their life when you leave them. If you had failures there is no reason why you cannot stand up again and face the realities of life. Give meaning to our life and only God who gave us that will know when is the right time to depart in this world. Your story is very inspiring and its good you had made the right decision to continue your life journey.