I hope in some way this helps someone to realize there's hope because that was my biggest hurdle no hope. This is still very painful for me to relive. I don't even know how to start I'm 39 now I started my addiction at 24. I was working roofing and construction then and had met the love of my life. I knew from the beginning she was special. I had never in my life felt like I did about her. But we were both young and wild and experimenting. Well I hurt my back and I went to the local dr. Who was very liberal with pain pills. I eventually graduated to OXY and some terrible things happened between my GF and I who was pregnant with our daughter. We split up and I started using to suppress the anger, pain and embarrassment I felt. We eventually got back together but I didn't deal with our issues and used even more. She watched me spiral out of control untill she could no longer take it. By now we were married and our daughter was 2. I was so lost I stopped talking to her and seeing my daughter I just disappeared out of my daughters life for 7 years. I lost everything my wife, my daughter, a house, a boat and my truck. I was a functional addict and made good money but I was spending at least a 1,000. A week on Oxy. I was so sad I knew I'd OD one day and decided to kill myself but I was too much of a coward. Then after years of being bottomed out I lucked up and met a friend who had beaten addiction and he helped me find my way to help. He helped me to realize it's not too late. I cleaned up it was the hardest thing ever. Eventually I decided I wanted to be a father to my daughter and contacted my ex wife and humbly apologized. We talked for the first time in 7 years and she realized I was the man I once was only stronger. We both walked away from our current relationships and reunited our family. We remarried and I worked on repairing my relationship with my daughter and making up for the last 7 years. I will never go back. Please anyone here looking for hope don't give up its never too late. Not everyone will get their family back but you deserve to be happy and I promise the life waiting for you is so much better than your life of addiction. I have never met anyone who used as much opiates as me and didn't OD if I can get my life back so can you. Reach out please. I'm sorry it's so long my story is way more detailed but I didn't want to bore you to death.