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Think about hydrocodone all the time

Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by Sunshine7, Jul 7, 2018.

  1. Sunshine7

    Sunshine7 Member

    I am new here. I am a mother of 2 and have been married for 24 years. I went through treatment for opioid addiction back in 2013. I had neck surgery to replace 3 discs and doctor kept prescribing the meds and eventually I ended up in rehab for a month. Worked for a little while then I had knee surgery in 2014, then shoulder surgery in 2015. I didn’t tell the doctor about my past so I would not have to be in pain. He only prescribed them for a short amount of time. So, I was off them completely. Now, back in 2015, my husband had to stop working due to spinal issues. He has had 2 back surgeries and he still has many issues. Occasionally I would ask him for some pills and he would say no but I would get mad so he would give in. Sometimes I would sneak them from him and from other places. He now refuses to give them to me and keeps them locked up. I have a lot of arthritis and starting to have back pain. I hate pain and I just love that they take my pain away. In a way, I am angry that he can take them but I can’t. I am pissed that I may just have to live with pain the rest of my life or just sneak somehow. Ok, that’s my story and I was just wondering if anyone else is in a similar situation.
  2. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @Sunshine7 hello and welcome! sorry you're having to deal with this... pain can be so tough to handle.

    i can't relate to the situation. i imagine it can be pain pills certainly do help. i also think they ought to be a last resort... are you able to discuss your pain issues with a pain specialist? i don't know enough about the topic to really be of value...but i do hope you can get some pain relief... i'm sure you don't want to become addicted again though....

    your husband has good reason not to just hand them over. he may run out...and he may be afraid of you becoming addicted.
  3. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    Wow this one is tough because you both sound older,(forgive me if im wrong) but you both have chronic pain so unfortunately i don't have any great advice for you and that aggravates me because i always try my best on stories of opioids because they have nearly killed me several time's.Stay Strong and God Bless
  4. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Welcome to the community, @Sunshine7. And thanks for sharing. I'm sorry about the chronic pain that you and your husband have to deal with. But I agree with @Dominica: Maybe look into seeing a pain specialist and find out if there may be other ways to deal with the pain. Pills can help relieve pain, but they can also ruin your life. So you have to be super careful. But I'm sure you know that already because of the addiction you went through previously. I also have to say that I'm glad your husband has his pills locked up. You may not like it, but if it keeps you from sneaking them it's probably a good thing. You really don't want to go back to being addicted to pain pills, do you?

    We're here for you. For help and support. And to listen. So please reach out and lean on us anytime you feel the need, okay?
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