Hi Guys I had to do a new screen name and all to get in (again). So this is me. I haven't been around because I just hadn't been around...life started happening and then I had a bad accident at the dog park. My dogs took off while on the leash and I wasn't paying attention and took me down hard smack on my shoulder and tore the rotator cuff and dislocated the bicep. The other shoulder also tore a new tear (I had that repaired years ago). March 4 I had the surgery for the shoulder I fell on (left) and it has been almost 4 weeks of complete dependency on my husband to do every little thing for me. I am following doctors orders and keeping it in the sling with no movement and doing physical therapy religiously. The pain is a lot to handle. I am not taking any opiates. I am however on Tramadol which let me tell you, doesn't make you feel anything like opiates but I feel addicted already. I was also prescribed Soma which is a pill I've had a problem in the past with although right now I am mostly taking the Tramadol. I am going to pick a new clean date after the 2nd surgery for the other shoulder which will be when this one heals. Even though these are doctor prescribed I want to be squeaky clean and I am not sure if I am taking them only for pain...as I said, I think my body/mind got dependent on them. I am taking 3-4 a day. Granted the pain is real...but motrin might work just as well. I cannot drive for another few weeks and am taking Lyft wherever I go so my meetings are fewer and around my home area but I am going to minimum 3 a week. I have missed you all and wanted to sign in, say hi, see how you are, and also have you once again here for me.