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Tired of addiction ruling my life

Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by Gracief9174, Aug 2, 2018.

  1. Gracief9174

    Gracief9174 Member

    I'm sat here once again, drink in hand. Trying to get over yet another night of cocaine abuse. I dream of a life free of being dependent on anything. It's seems a distant memory where I could take pleasure in the simple things in life. I have dreams and aspirations of a life that I want to lead but alcohol, drugs etc are always at the fore front. I lead a double life full of regret and self hate. As I know there are many of us out there who feel the same...
  2. lonewolves

    lonewolves Community Champion

    Sending every bit of positivity your way. Every day I battle with that evil part of myself; I also hope that one day I am free from the control that drugs have over me, whether they are in me or not.
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  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Gracief9174... Welcome to the community. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with addiction, but I'm glad you came here and shared with us. That's a big first step toward making your life better. I'm wondering: Have you ever tried to quit? Would you consider seeing an addiction specialist? Or doing outpatient or inpatient treatment? What about AA, NA, or SMART Recovery meetings? There are all kinds of tools out there that can help you get and stay on a road to recovery. Seeing a therapist can help, too. Addiction is oftentimes caused by things that have happened to us in our past. A good counselor can help us discover and confront those demons, and that can help make getting clean and sober much easier. Just some food for thought.

    We're here to help you, support you, and listen to you. So please don't hesitate to reach out anytime you feel the need. You can overcome your addictions if you truly want to and are willing to do the hard work necessary. Will it be easy? Nope. But I can guarantee that it will be incredibly worth it. And it will change your life for the better in so many ways.

    Sending you love, light, hope and encouragement.
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  4. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    @Gracief9174 You are correct many of us struggle with "Double lives"however for some that standard would be acceptable because it would mean the addiction doesn't Completely control your life....YET!!The "Double life"quickly turns into the only life you have,use your smarts,that conscious awareness of the misery this lifestyle causes and try to focus that into steps to change it before it's to late.You are obviously aware of the downward spiral you are currently stuck in and it takes courage and strength to admit your life is being consumed by addiction, it's progress,it's a step in the correct direction. Talking about it,admitting it is the first step in recovery so congratulations on successfully taking that step,I commend your incredible courage in doing so.The other's above have given some great advice and insight.You can change your life before it truly gets out of control and you don't have to do it alone.As you reachout we will reach back,if you fall down we will extend our arm's and help you back to your feet,Please share here openly and honestly,there is no judgment here we only seek to help and encourage one another.Stay Strong and God Bless
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  5. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Hey, @Gracief9174... How are you doing today? If you get a chance, check in with us. We care.
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  6. Mannsean

    Mannsean Member

    I understand you perfectly. You need to pull yourself together. No one else can help you.
  7. SKnox

    SKnox Member

    It is good that you are aware of the fact that you have a drug addiction. You need to find someone who will support you and help you overcome this addiction. My sister was also addicted to drugs. She denied it for a long time. I decided to prove to her that she had become addicted and told her to read the recognizing signs of addiction. After reading the article, she admitted that she was addicted to it. I helped her get rid of it. My sister worked hard on herself for three years, and she did it.
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