When I'm upset I just don't smoke. It just feels like there's no reason to live anymore and it's gonna be my last day, so what happens, is I overly indulge myself to my pleasure, which aside from smoking is binge eating. I just keep on eating despite that I already full and even that I don't enjoy anymore eating. And then after that binge eating and binge smoking, I would feel bad that I wanna kill myself. Any help?