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Discussion in 'Cocaine' started by Ryegordon, Apr 8, 2019.

  1. Ryegordon

    Ryegordon Member

    So this is my first time sharing here, matter of fact it's my first time sharing any of my drug addiction woes with anyone .

    I'm 30 years old I run a successful carpentry business with 4 employees, I have a 7 month old daughter and a beautiful girlfriend who's a wonderful mother to my daughter . I work hard, I'm very amicable, I pay my bills and I try to be a good person .

    I mean I got it pretty good.

    But let's be real here I'm not on this forum because I was surfing the web or stumbled across this site.

    I'm a full blown coke head, using 4-5 times a week sometimes starting at 8am and going until 3am . Last night I blew my family off to go snort an 8ball and drink a 26er of whiskey. ( I'm not trying to sound cool here just being honest) I awoke in my truck at 3am this morning with no recollection of what transpired after 4pm that day, vague flashes but nothing concrete. I don't know how I'm not in jail or how I didn't kill someone . Or how I managed to not lose everything I hold dear to me in one fell swoop. Needless to say my girlfriend's not happy as this isn't the first time I've pulled this . I was given my packing orders this morning.

    I need help. This has been going on for 7 years now.
  2. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Ryegordon... Welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing with us. While I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with cocaine, I'm happy you found us and decided to post. That's a big first step toward making some positive life changes, and I'm very proud of you for taking it.

    I don't think I have to tell you this, but if you continue down the road you've been on for the last 7 years, things are only going to get worse. Case in point: Your girlfriend telling you to leave. You said in your post that you have a beautiful girlfriend who is a wonderful mother to your daughter. Are you willing to give her up in order to keep doing cocaine??? What about your daughter? She's only 7-months old. Do you want to lose her, too? I doubt that you do. But if you keep doing what you're doing, you're gonna end up alone and miserable...or dead.

    There is help out there. All you have to do is seek it out. You can find an addiction specialist in your area and consult with them. They can assess your individual situation and recommend the best next steps for you. You can find a therapist who specializes in treating people with addiction issues and start talking to them. You can go to support group meetings like Narcotics Anonymous or Cocaine Anonymous. There you'll be around others who know exactly what you're going through and feeling. That can really be a big help. But all of these options require one thing: You have to WANT to change. If you don't, nothing is going to help you.

    We are a group of caring people who have a good idea of what you're going through, so you can come and lean on us anytime you'd like. If you need help, support, advice, or just someone to listen to you get things off your chest, we can help you. We'll also be part of your support network if you decide to take the journey to recovery. So feel free to use us to your advantage.

    You can kick your cocaine habit's ass. I know you can. Will it be easy? Nope. But I can guarantee that it will be incredibly worth it.

    Sending you lots of hope and encouragement. You've got so much good in your world. Don't throw it all away for the sake of getting high.
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  3. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    @Ryegordon hey there! glad you are here and wanting to make some changes! @deanokat has given some great advice. go full force ahead figuring out what recovery path works for you. try one or try them all... the point is to try and give it all you've got. the truth it that it probably won't be easy... but anything of value takes work.

    your brain is geared now to go get a big dopamine boost via drugs... it'll take time to reprogram it, and it might take some therapy as well. many people will balk at therapy, but i think it has merit. there's plenty of people running around with their wounded child running the show...emotionally a mess, but stuffing it all..and numbing out. it takes time and inner healing work to get through that.

    here's your wake up call...your gf telling you to leave. here's your opportunity to draw a line in the sand and so "no more" and really do some things differently.

    and please come here and share your journey here. the good, the fearful, and the ugly.... we are here!
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  4. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Just wondering how you're doing today, @Ryegordon. We're here and we care. Hit us up anytime you need us.
  5. Ryegordon

    Ryegordon Member

    Good morning @deanokat I'm definitely feeling the effects of what I put my body through. No time for rest with running the business. I'm definitely looking forward to being sober as I can't continue on this path in my life. just trying to get through it day-by-day. I mean today I don't want to use but who knows what tomorrow is going to bring once I start feeling a little better
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  6. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Take it one day at a time, @Ryegordon. That's all you can do. Conquer today today, and worry about tomorrow tomorrow. And remember we're all behind you 100 percent.
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  7. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    Hello I'm almost 4 weeks, wow a month from a 10 year opioid addiction. I believe you can do this. You want help and asked for it. This is the beginning of your new self. One day at a time is real. Ask for whatever you need to help stay clean.
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  8. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    How are things going, @Ryegordon? Just want you to know that I'm thinking about you today. Stop by and let us know how you're doing if you get a chance.
  9. Uranusman

    Uranusman Member

    you know, this is my first time on this forum and I found a suitable thread and I would like to thank you because it’s just awesome advice
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  10. Davers

    Davers Community Champion

    Now over a year after the OP's first post , I pray all is well with him , his story sounds all to familiar & want to thank @Uranusman for bringing my attention , & hope @ Uranusman can be well in their struggle.

    So much addiction out there it's crazy.
  11. azazello

    azazello Member

    Too bad that we haven't heard anything from him. I was really interested to see how he was doing.
    Stories like his are pretty good, actually. We can make conclusions based on them and decide how to act in situations like that. I can say it because my brother was like him, and I saw how he struggled. It was a hard battle with drugs, and he won. I don't know how long this will last, but it's still a good thing. He has a beautiful family, a nice job, and an interesting hobby. For example, he is now studying the donchian channel. I'm glad that he never stays in one place and is developing. I wish the same to Ryegordon.
    Last edited: Oct 7, 2021