This is my first time posting so bare with me. I feel like I’m stuck in the past I can’t move forward in my life. I use drugs to make myself feel happy but in reality it’s not and just a quick fix. I have hurt so many ppl in my life my family number one. I’ve lied cheated , stole , you name it I’ve done it. I started using when I was 19 now I’m 36. I’ve been to a lot of rehabs and jail as well. I don’t hurt ppl intentionally I just don’t think before I act. My family is tired of me and pretty much has given up. They are so hurt and angry with me that I found out some things that happened and it was to intentionally hurt me and well it did. I want to be forgiven but I also have been betrayed by my own family but I as well have hurt them. I just don’t know what to do. How do I move forward. Please any advice would help
Hey welcome glad your here. Are you addicted or dependent. Like you've heard a hundred times getting sober is a journey. Dont let that rule over your thoughts being completely sober or not because change comes from within you have to really want it. You have to be completely tired of the way your living then you start the process. Then you have to practice at trying to think postive and being sober learning to live inside your head again it takes time and patience but you will start to change the way you think and the sober days will get longer. You have to forgive yourself and take responsibility for your actions but understand that your decisions got you here. Change does not happen overnight but it can start with the right mindset. You will get better at it and each time you fail hold yourself accountable but stay in the right mindset and learn from your mistake. It's not just about quitting your drug or drink of choice its about changing your life to do something different in your next 20 years. That takes Conviction.
I was stuck in the wrong mindset for over 10 years on opioids I woke up one day and I had enough. Over 5 months clean now