I've smoked since i was 14 and a few weeks ago i made the choice to quit. Its hard. I literally crave a Newport almost every second of every day. I'm always irritable, I snap at friends and family for absolutely no reason, and I just feel down everyday. I've lost almost ten pounds already because I just don't have an appetite anymore (that cigarette after each meal used to be amazing). I used to think I was a very stong person, now I'm not so sure. I can feel myself slipping. Cigarettes are all i think about. My mom is addicted to coke and alcohol, I used to think her addictions were bad. Now I just realize how much of a hypocrite I've been. Almost an hour ago, I went out and got a pack. I haven't smoked one yet but its just a matter of time. I've always been an overachiever, I don't want to fail at this. Its not healthy.