I never truly understood the strength it took my mother to get clean until I got sick. I have Syringomyelia and Chiari Malformation and Ehler Danlos Syndrome. I was born with all three. All three are painful conditions with no cure that started to take their toll on my body in the past 2 years. That means therapy and pain pills. I experienced my first bad withdrawal when they switched me from one pain killer to another that would work better. My mother was the first to notice the symptoms, she had been there. The problem was that they were stepping me down and my system was hypersensitive. I went through withdrawal with each step down, for a month. Then, I had withdrawals each time they screwed up a script. Pain, sweats, nausea, vertigo and mood swings. I've never had more respect for my mother than I do now. It takes courage to get clean.