It often comes a time that I don't know what to do. I'm just in complete boredom. I don't want to get back to my addiction, but at the same time it feels like I don't want to go on with my life. I can't do anything. So I feel it. I watch movies, but I find the new movies to be too uninspiring, so I watched those that shaped my childhood, that inspired me as a childhood. And it brings back my passion and commitment to life.