Watching slow death happening. Inconceivable statement unless you're living it everyday with a loved one. In my case my adult child, a heroin addict. No one will ever know the feeling of my heart stopping every time my cell phone rings. None will ever feel the total despair of looking into my child's emotionless eyes that one time shined. No one will ever hear my silent screams. No one will have countless sleepless nights waiting to hear the car pull into the driveway. It is so easy for people to say "they're adults and make their own choices". What these people don't realize is that I am dying along with my child. Addiction is not a choice. It is a desease. Laws needs to he changed to allow parents of an adult child struggling with addiction to have the right to make the best decision on their adult addicts child behalf. Too many of our children have been buried because parents do not have the right to make a life saving decision on their child's behalf. Does anyone know how and is interested on become an advocate in Passaic county New Jersey?