There have always been smokers in my immediate family, and all of my best friends were always smokers. Already before I started smoking, my image of myself was as a smoker. My first cigarette was around 5, and I had stolen a cigarette from my father - mimicking the motions basically. I didn't start until 14, and by 19 I would smoke around 2 packs a day if my financial situation would permit. I would buy alcohol and cigarettes first, so that I wouldn't run out on money buying food and paying bills! In recent years I have 'played' around with the thought to quit. I want to quit - I really do - it's just that I want to smoke. I quit smoking a few times when I had pneumonia . there were moments where I coughed so much I could barely breathe - much less smoke. I would steal a puff from friends, and as soon as the worst would be over I would be chain smoking again. One of these days, I want to become a mother and I know its a habit I would like to give up sooner than later - but I don't seem to find the thing which will push me over the edge and 'make me' quit. How did you decide that this was the time to quit once and for all?