I've been struggling with meth use for months. Ive always preferred upppers and knew to stay away from this particular drug. Yet, here I am, due to my impulsivity and yolo mentality. I smoke everyday but have had enough control to only smoke throughout the day and stay on a routine sleep schedule. I know where this leads. Loss of my job, relationships, lust of life, money, teeth. Mood swings, indifference, rage, etc. I tend to go through phases when it comes to drugs. I'll find one I like, obsessively use it until I'm uncomfortably close to a full blown addiction, then give it up easily. This particular drug scares me due to the research I have done on the topic. The relapse rate is insane. I've never let a substance control me and have never been on any hardcore drug for more than a few months, then I'm ready to say goodbye to it. This is my favorite substance thus far. Im playing mind games with myself. "It's just a little boost before work, no big deal." "Housework is much more enjoyable after a few hits." "Sex is awesome!" You catch my drift. I am at the point where I need to give it up like I did the others, with no intention of wanting to stop right now. It won't be long until this could get too out of hand and I jump right to full blown addiction. I'm convincing myself that I can do this drug, function properly, and live a the same life I lead sober. Someone talk some sense into me.