An American Addiction Centers Resource

New to the Forums?Join or

Why keep trying?

Discussion in 'Alcohol' started by darcy11, Sep 30, 2017.

  1. darcy11

    darcy11 Member

    I had a 20 days in August and a couple of 4 day stretches in September, but I'm back to drinking with a vengeance. My life sucks, I suck. I don't know why I even try anymore. After so many years, I really think it's time for me to give up. I have so much guilt, and regret, and I can't live with it anymore.
  2. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @darcy11... Never ever give up. I understand your frustration, but if you keep trying I know you can get sober. Sobriety is a learned behavior and it can take lots of practice before you master it. I liken it to learning to speak a foreign language. You decide you want to do it, you practice, you fail, you practice more, you get better, you practice more, and eventually you get good at it. You don't quit because it's not easy or because you don't master it right away. You keep working. You keep trying. You don't give up.

    You had 20 days in August. That's amazing. And it tells me you can get there--and beyond--again. Are you getting any help, either from someone like an addiction specialist or support groups? The process can be easier with assistance. You don't have to do this alone. And you should definitely keep trying. Because your life is a precious thing and you deserve to live it to its fullest.

    Below is a video I made a while back. Maybe it will help you.

    I'm keeping good thoughts for you, my friend. And I'm sending you tons of positive energy, hope, and encouragement.

  3. darcy11

    darcy11 Member

    @deanokat, thanks for sharing your video, it is helpful. I was seeing a therapist that specialized in addiction but I can't afford it anymore. I live alone. I go to work, I come home & I drink. Every morning I tell myself that's it, no more, I'm not doing that again tonight, and then that night I come home & do it all over again. I tried AA but it wasn't for me. I do like SMART and there is a meeting that I go to sometimes but I haven't been in a while. I am helping care for a parent and that doesn't allow time to attend the meeting because I am usually at their house at the meeting time. Anyway, sorry I'm kind of rambling but thanks for responding and for sharing the video. I'm starting day 4 and hopefully I can keep it going this time. Thanks again.
  4. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Welcome to Day 4, @darcy11. That's terrific. Get through today and you'll be on to Day 5, which will beat your 4-day stretches in September. You can do this. I know you can.
    True concern likes this.
  5. Rella

    Rella Member

    Hi Darcy
    I also drink at night compulsively. Im trapped I want to stop so bad. I pray to God I can get 20 days you should be so proud of yourself. I relate to you because you drink alone and because you can't make meetings and because you're a caretaker anyways I just wanted to send you support and wish you the best I'm trying to talk about my problem because for me My addiction is a secret and I think talking about it is going to help me stop.
    True concern and deanokat like this.
  6. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Rella... Yes, talking about your addiction will help you stop. You are welcome to come here and talk anytime. You can do this. I know you can!
  7. JudiB

    JudiB Member

    Hi Darcy,
    Yes, it is tough to overcome an addiction, but feel your break as your little success in the direction towards sobriety.
    Now you had 20 days break to return back to alcohol, in your next try, I hope it will be 30+ days and so on.
    Soon you will get rid off alcohol and live a beautiful life.

    God give you energy and strength for your next alcohol break.
    True concern and deanokat like this.