One of the things I’ve starting to notice is that some of the people I used to be the most comfortable with and enjoy drinking with don’t have a lot to offer me anymore. It’s not that I am intolerant or feel like I will over indulge when I’m with them but it’s just not the same ‘fun’ and the amount of alcohol that is consumed is off putting. I was never quite as heavy of a drinker as this group but I didn’t find it concerning. It was fun. It makes me think that when fueled by alcohol my blinders must have been on. It’s looking at things like this objectively and having a place to be able to talk about them that is helping me to see that I am ready for a change. Even just saying that is a step in the right direction. I know I'm not the first person to feel this way. Its just the first time I've had the courage to admit it even to myself.