When I went through some rather heavy states of mind, in other words, when I was struck down by depression for almost a year, the only thing that helped me was to write about my feelings. At times, words literally "exploded" onto the pages of my diary, where I felt like I wasn't really the creator of those words, but the addiction in me was talking, or rather "screaming". Often I would write page after page without really understanding what I was writing. I would just let everything within me flow out without judging it. Later, when I used to reread my sentences, I was often astounded how much it all made sense on a deeper level. Do you use writing as a tool of getting in touch with certain areas in your life that you find difficult to access consciously?