I went to my doctor recently and told him I thought I had been suffering from panic and anxiety attacks. We talked through my symptoms and troubles. He mentioned that they often prescribe Xanax but because it is highly addictive in young females he chooses not to prescribe it. He instead put me on an antidepressant (Celexa I think, I could be wrong) and sent me on my way. I am sure I do suffer from some depression but I don't like the idea of antidepressants and I also don't like the thought of taking a drug to mask or numb my emotions. I took the pills for 2 months and hated feeling like my pistons weren't firing in my brain so I stopped taking it. It also seemed to give me horrible nightmares at night. Is it bad of me to wish he would have prescribed me Xanax? I just want something to help me off that edge of crazy, can't breath, can't focus, super upset, freaking out, moments of panic that I get into every now and then. I don't want to doctor shop as he did scare me into believing that I would instantly become addicted. Any advice?