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Discussion in 'Heroin' started by Jay C., May 30, 2015.

  1. Jay C.

    Jay C. Member

    Hey, my name is Jay & I'm an addict. Came here looking for help, leaving feeling worse! I have the 'typical' story for my area. Drinking at 12, pot at 13, then x. By 17, I was full blown I.V. herion addict. Got so bad, I'd shoot dope to get 'well' & the powder(coke) to feel something. Been in jails, institions, & I died twice!
    So many meetings & rehabs. inpatient & out. I am 38 now, only clean for 2 months. (Fresh out of jail again). Anyway, to the point. I am sad & dissapointed with most of the comments here. So, Thanks.
  2. Adrianna

    Adrianna Community Champion

    What are you looking for in this forum? Sounds like you need some kind of direction. Doesn't sound like you are an addict now. Clean two months is a good thing.
  3. SarahWorksAtHome

    SarahWorksAtHome Community Champion

    I really hate that you didn't seem to find what you needed or wanted here. Is there anything someone can help you with? I'd be glad to chat with you and offer some encouragement or support or whatever else I can do. What kind of help are you seeking?
  4. Jay C.

    Jay C. Member

    Thank you for responding, Adrianna! I was looking for 'experience, strength, & hope'. I was in a bad place, mentally, & just wanted the obsession to end. Again, Thank you so much for your understanding & your time.
  5. MrsJones

    MrsJones Community Listener Community Listener

    Hi Jay C. Welcome to the forum. From your OP you've probably visited other forums to come to the conclusion that 'it's not what you were looking for.' I'd like to challenge you to expound on your experiences with the forum that would initiate a meaningful discussion with the members here.

    I believe you have more to share with us.
  6. Danyell

    Danyell Community Champion

    @Jay C. I too am a IV heroin addict and have been for years. So I know and understand some of the things you are going through. If you ever want to talk, vent, or anything feel free to message me!
  7. karmaskeeper

    karmaskeeper Community Champion

    @Jay C. I hope you will give this board a chance. I'm sure you'll find that people here are kind, and understand. Your life with addiction sounds horrible as does so many stories here including my own. Welcome and congrats on being clean.
  8. Aescopri

    Aescopri Active Contributor

    Great job, though! Being "clean for two months" is a huge step in getting rid of the heroin addiction. Anyhow, don't ever give up hope. As with any other drug and alcohol, do seek some help from your family members, trusted friends, or distant relatives.
    And, about your experience with most comments here—I'm sure you'll find someone willing and able to chat with you about experiences, someone like @Adrianna!
  9. Im sorry you feel worse now but understand. Im in my 30's also with a similar story. Sometimes it feels like you're stuck in a loop constantly repeating the same behaviors. It gets old after a while doesn't it? I hate the fact that I can't count on myself to always do the sane normal thing and stay sober, it makes no sense. I'm 6 months clean at this point after a hard binge of IV meth and heroin that ended with me getting resuscitated by paramedics. I know my life is better now than it was then and that its getting better. It might seem that some other posters dont understand or are not on the same level but I think I get where your coming from. It sucks to be stuck on the revolving door of addiction > recovery > relapse > repeat and I think many of us are looking for a way to break that cycle.
  10. rightct

    rightct Community Champion

    Sorry to hear you didn't find what you wanted here. My story is slightly different: Started smoking at 14, then went into pot at 16 and ultimately started drinking my ass off at 19. This site only brought me good things. To be honest, not even my family was this close to me than these virtual meadows. :)
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  11. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    I am so sorry to hear this site wasn't what you were looking for. If you read this, please don't give up on it, this is a wonderful community full of people who have been touched one way or another by addiction. I myself had a rough start as well, had some rough encounters with the law... which eventually lead me to want to change my life and lead it to a different direction. Best of luck with everything.... wherever you are now! I hope you eventually find what you are looking for.
  12. SarahWorksAtHome

    SarahWorksAtHome Community Champion

    Hey @Jay C.
    I haven't seen any replies from you in the last few weeks so I wanted to check in and see if you're doing alright.
    As you can see from all of the replies on this thread, there ARE people here on this forum who want to support you and try to help you build strength and give you as much encouragement as you can take! Don't let a little disappointment deter you from experiencing love and friendship from those of us who are here to lift up and lend an ear, shoulder or advice.
    I sincerely pray you are doing well and will be back around soon!
    Hang in there!
  13. xTinx

    xTinx Community Champion

    Hey Jay.C! I don't really know what you're looking for here, but you see, the 'experience, strength and hope' you need are just there right within you. If only you give yourself the chance to experience, to hope and to have strength. We can't really tell you what to do so the least we can do is provide suggestions. Still, at the end of the day, it's up to you whether or not you want to take those suggestions and apply them to your life.
  14. bsthebenster

    bsthebenster Community Champion

    That's it man. People without first hand experience aren't going to be able to offer the support needed. There are a few people here who have been through it though.
  15. harold

    harold Community Champion

    Hey Jay, Sorry you didn't find all you needed here. I underestimated this forum when I first came here, but it is a place with much more value. In my own case, I have seen things more than what I expected here. There are many people on this forum who are happy to be here. I just wish to advice you to take part in the forum like every other person--ask questions and make contributions. It will be of great value to this forum if you can use your experiences to teach other people. If you place yourself in the position of a teacher, you will increase your personal expectations. This forum is a wonderful place because everyone is learning. The fact that you are disappointed means that your standards are high. Why don't you hang around like a role model and teach us something here. We are always listening and will like to learn.
  16. Matthodge1

    Matthodge1 Community Champion

    I'm sorry you didn't find what you wanted/needed here. You can always come back and we would be happy to console you, but I hope you find what you're looking for.
  17. Matthodge1

    Matthodge1 Community Champion

    That's so true. I can tell you there are a lot of people here who haven't done heroin(me being one of them, actually)so I would not be able to help you in that area whatsoever. I'm not claiming to be able to give you advice or anything, but there are others who definitely are.
  18. Rex

    Rex Community Champion

    Jesus man, sounds like you have had it tough. I used to smoke weed and i had a bad drinking habit. I dont know how many people on here had the extreme problems you had. You should try and connect with the people on here who can properly communicate with you from exeriences like your own
  19. smartmom

    smartmom Senior Contributor

  20. smartmom

    smartmom Senior Contributor

    I am sorry to see that they comments bothered you Jay. I know its a struggle. I believe in you. Search your heart to try to see why you started using drugs in the first place. Pay very little attention to what others have to say because only you know the root. What most people fell to understand is that people can enter program after program but their is still a root to why people do what they do.
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